Way of Life

Some say the best of things in life don’t last
But I’ve still got you & that proves ‘em wrong
All the way you’ve been by my side,
Lending me a helping hand when I stumbled
Let me fall too when you thought I needed that lesson
To be careful the next time around
Held me close to you, gave me warmth & comfort
How I cherish you, how much my heart beats for you
Nothing could be more precious than you,
Or so I thought I too would be for you ...
I don’t deny you love me true
Yet this heart pleads for more of you
Wish to have you around, the way I used to
Wish to have the carefree life all back again
Wish to walk the fields together, watch the sun dip & play in the rain
Wish to chat up way beyond what we were permitted to do…
Wish to do all the crazy things we always used to do
We were a team, together we could beat all odds…
You’d know my thoughts before even I could interpret ‘em
You could see when my heart was bleeding
You knew when to let me be by myself & when to scoop me up in your loving arms
Folks envied us! Yes! They never could have a bond like ours
We were blessed with it…oh yea! & we knew it too
We always had a something special between us
Our heart & mind was one...
None else could perceive our thought but we could speak without words
Hear in absence of speech, feel sans the emotions expressed
We were a team… we still are…
Way of life has taken over now
You have your lives & I mine…
Yet it remains true that I never had truer friends than you my lovely sisters!

Waiting for the daybreak

“Do you see the images flashing in my eyes?
Can you hear what my heart is whispering?
When the light of the day is given away,
When the cacophony of life gives away to silence of the dusk
When all life is still & away in the land of dreams
Meet me there by the shade of the banyan tree
The very place where you stole my heart at first
I’ve been waiting too long my love
To share with you a sea of things
Be there, be not late…
Under the velvety sky, watching the bejeweled sky
I shall share from my heart’s treasure chest
All that has been tucked away, for all these year
Be there my love… I will see you there…”

A faint figure, bent over, she looked frozen at the spot
Beneath an o’le banyan tree, she looked a part of it
A closer look & you see few silver strands partially covering her face
A beauty she sure was in her youth, you could see,
Etched on that tender face glimpse of a fair maiden
Drops of tears fled from her face, taking cover
Waiting here to keep her promise…
Youth passed her by but the pain stranded…
Waited, this fair damsel, that night for her beloved
Fate had other plans
Messengers of death met him on his way …
Fate! Ah cursed fate! Crossed the path of a young love
She waits on for her love, whom she knows will never meet her,
Beneath the banyan’s shade where he first stole her heart…
Love sure has strange ways…
Every passing day before the dusk gives way to dawn
One finds a faithful love, wait for her precious…
“He promised to meet me… yes… he promised”
Whispers her faint heart…
And on she waits & will keep waiting…
Till her precious returns for her.

Here I am now

Here I am now, looking back at the beginning of our journey
Never knew then where would we be after so many years
The days of uncertainty yet a feeling of familiarity
Do I know you from before? Or are you someone just like me
Was what I used to ponder back then…
Even after so long, I can’t quite say the mystery is lost
The more I get to know you, it seems I know you much lesser
Life is truly a blessing, when surrounded by people like you
You’ve taught me things I needed to know,
You’ve guided me through the murky roads
You give new meaning to the word ‘Grace’
So much more I have to learn from you…
Now when I see you, I know you were sent to be a blessing to me
Now when I look at you, my heart smiles...
B'coz I stood afar from you at first
And now after so many years, I see how entwined our lives have become…
And no other friend is as sweet as you my dear
B'coz no one else could understand me the way you do!

Peace

A feather from heaven touched me
It swept over me like a gentle breeze
It took all my cares and gave me strength
To hold my head up and not bow in shame
A hand from heaven touched me,
It imparted a warm embrace to my heart
And I stand here smiling, not b’coz I choose it
I smile b’coz something deep within gives me peace.

What wud u do

Even in the midst of a torrent, I wait for your sweet voice
When the storm around me has kicked up a cloud and I’m lost in the fog of dust,
Would you come searching for me?
Coz I’m waiting for you here, hoping you would know I’m near

When I do all things that puzzles you, when I try to hide behind masks of feelings
Would you just stay behind and watch or would you step right up & tear the mask?

What would you do?
I hope you wont leave coz I hope you would come to rescue me
I wait here all these hours, trying not to think about you

Yet I wish to let you go too, so you could have a better life…
But what would you do?
Would you see that I care and love you, but I want the best for you?

What would you do?
I only want to see you smile; I want to see you keep that smile, all your life…

Lesson from life

They told me not to love him
They said he wasn’t worth it
Why could I not see it?
Was I too a fool in love?
My pride would refute that outright
Nay, you r smarter than tat
Said my little naive heart
But yes I was blind…
Blinded this one time
I could not see the guile
Or any other wrong vice
Trusted him with all my heart
But I got my heart back broken

Can you live a day breath denied?
Can you live water denied?
Could I live a day without my dear by my side?
Nay, but I had to survive
Wasted I have way too many days
The dreadful long hours I wasted crying
He doesn't care what happens to me
He doesn’t know this heart is bleeding
Proud as a heart my heart was
Wouldn’t let me mourn one such as him
I set my heart to do useful things
To make my life a more productive one
So I learned that Love is precious & hard to find
Never reject love coz Love teaches us
L’le things we’d not notice…

Someone might not be worth your time
Someone might break your heart someday
But just those things shouldn’t keep u from loving
We go on living day after day
But it doesn't have to be down n depressing
The biggest strength one can gain
Is by picking up from where one has fallen & by walking in strength once again

Journey thro feelings

Gentle as a cloud I moved, through the hustling life of mankind
I saw things in life pass by; each held a meaning in its heart...
Every breath had something to utter to this cruel & unkind world
I stopped a while at Feelings' home & saw things I could'nt understand
As Time took me in her wings, I realised things of past
Sadness came to meet me, but I had no room for her
I moved on to a green pasture, owned by Hope & Progress
As I paced around Hope, I saw valleys & hills
I went through them & there I met Failure, whom I'd heard of
She took me to a place of rest, named Shattered Dreams
A long gestations it was, & Time asked me to move on
I went further up & there I met Wisdom & Understanding
They took me to their humble abode & gave me lessons to abide by
I went along with Confidence & desired to move on
On my way to life of mankind, I met many folks...
I met Joy, I met Sorrow & I met Cheerfulness & Despair
Each of them told me to move on & I finally reached my destination
I saw all the feelings I was accustomed to - Joy, Sorrow & their relations
One day as I was passing by, I saw a little girl weeping...
I inquired of the reason & she told me "Sorrow had come my way & took my friendship away"
I hadn't met Friendship before - I knew not of it
I tried to console her but it was in vain... She said "All I need is a companion" and went way
One fine day she had a guest, I found her not happy, yet she seemed satisfied...
Then I never saw her again...
I asked others about it & they told me, "It was Death who visited her & she went away with him"
I hadn't met Death either & I knew not what it was
Further I went on my way, to choose a place to stay...
I found no lodging & so decided to sleep on the sidewalk
As I was about to do so, a gentle hand touched me
I opened my eyes & saw a beautiful creature before...
Amazed I asked it "Who are you & what have you to do with me?"
In its sweet & pleasant voice it replied "I'm Friendship of whom you might have heard,
I've been searching for you all my life... where had you been?"
As I conversed with Friendship I realised how sweet it was...
But then came to my mind the little girl...
I inquired of Friendship why it deserted her & it replied,
"I don't desert anyone, each of you choose to run away from me...
Not my fault but of each of yours who leave me behind"
I pondered over what it said & it did seem right to me...
I thought back of all whom I'd met & then I knew there was one more whom I had to meet..
Once again Time came up to me & said "I'll surely bring the last person you have to see,
But that'll be when I feel right"
I thanked Time for being so good to me & I continued my journey
To meet Wisdom once more & to prepare to meet the last person - Death

Dark Day

It was a dark cloudy day
The wind was blowing the trees to a sway
The sky was downcast – it looked like it would cry
Leaves and sand flying up the air
Picked up by the wind and tossed around…
‘It’s gona rain!’ I told myself and hurried to get under the shade
Uninvited the rain poured… down it came
As though with vengeance it had to repay
And I stood watching the clouds pour out its heart
Sweet rain it was once to me
But now it’s another cumbersome mess life brings.

My precious one

The night is long, the night is cold
And I’m here, all alone
I hurt your heart & I see it bleed
Don't want to compare you with the liars before you
There is no other face that I draw in my mind
How do I show you it’s only you inside?
I was lied to and cheated too often & now
I cannot my dear wait & see how you would be
I keep you at a distance coz I care about you…
Don't want to add you to the heart breakers list
I see the love in your eyes too
But my dear I’m afraid I might hurt you
I’m too hurt to give you love, now so don’t hate me
Love is a strong feeling, my dear, but I need more time
I want to see you happy & I don’t want to break your heart
Take care my dear, dear darling
You are very precious my friend…

I drew a picture

I drew a picture of you, in my mind…
But I lost it a long way back…
I kept trying to redraw the lines, but, somehow I could not…
I drew a picture of you, in my mind…
But I lost it a long way back…
Kept trying to read your face, in every face I beheld…
But could never quite find a match
I drew a picture of you, in my mind…
And then a long way after the memory of you was lost, one day I found a face…
Oh it struck my heart, but, I didn’t know why that picture kept tugging at my heart…
I drew a picture of you, in my mind…
But I had forgotten all about you, but now when I was not seeking your face,
Every place I go, everything I do, I can feel you are so near to me.. Yet so far…
I drew a picture of you, in my mind & now I’m trying to remember your face
But I know it in my heart that when you are near me, one day for sure, I will know it’s you…
I’ll know it’s you who’ve been in my heart… All this while

Do you see it?

You would never hear... you would never know
A million tears are spent wishing you were near

You would never hear... you would never know
Caught up in the web of life, pushing to achieve your goals

You never had the time to be by her side
Nor the heart to listen to her, at the end of a tiring day

She has no reproach, she lives just day by day
Hoping somewhere deep within, that someday you would care

Just the way she did for you, from the time you were conceived
But what have you given, for all her trouble & pain?

For every wish of yours she fulfilled, what did you give in return?
Did you hide behind the words that 'not everything can be repaid'

I see a drop of tear, slide down her face
Even though she proudly declares, how well you fare at work

She tries to convince you its a tear of joy
But the window to her soul tells you more...

Just pause for a while & think...
For all her love & care, what have you given in return?

Are you filled with shame? or is your heart hardened today?

Pause for a moment, I beg of you...
Think about your childhood days...

Was she not there by your bed side?
Reading you stories night after night

Was she not there for every game you played?
And proudly declared you are the best?

Was she not there to nurse your broken heart?
To take you in her arms & let the wounds heal

You would never hear... you would never know
A million tears are spent wishing you were near

She needs you now, more than ever...
Your dear lovely Mother is waiting for you.

Emptiness

I have no words, no thoughts to spare
Life does seem to head to despair
Hope as evergeen & tempting looks at me
Yet hope cannot just take me where I want to be
I wish to fly to a far far land...Untouch, unaffected by mankind

Pride

This proud heart will bow to none
Not for anything under the sun
You can accuse me & can hate me
And that wouldn’t bother me

He wanted me to give in to his words
But I would'nt stoop to being his slave
He struck me again & again & yes it did hurt
But this proud heart couldn't show it

I stood upright as pride & strength would allow
Now when my punishment was over, I walked right past all authority
You can hurt my body but you will never have my heart
Was the message etched on my face clearly

The spirit of fighters about whom I was taught
Brimming to top as I walked head up
The pride of my heart so well composed
One look on my face you would know it all

Yet now as I think back of it all
wonder what my teacher thought,
When a five year old marched down the hall
Head held up, marching with unbroken pride!!!